nicholas sparks

“You can’t live your life for other people. You’ve got to do what’s right for you, even if it hurts some people you love.” -Nicholas Sparks, The Notebook

Looking at Nicholas Spark’s quotes makes me happy. Nothing makes me happier than reading one of his books. I think he’s incredible and amazing and perfect and his wife is so incredibly lucky.
Anyway… I honestly blame Nicholas Sparks for my high expectations. No joke. I love every single one of his books and I can’t tell you which one is my favorite. They’re all amazing. They’re like fairytales. It makes a girl believe that there is a good guy out there waiting for you and that your Prince Charming is somewhere in the world. But each of his characters have flaws. His books show girls what true love is. His stories melt my heart more than any boy could. His books make me cry my eyes out sometimes too. Oh, and The Notebook has to be the best movie ever made. I could watch that all day. Sometimes, I think my standards and expectations are wayyyy too high. How could anyone ever meet them? And sometimes I feel bad about it. It’s hard to explain. I don’t believe in perfect boys, but I think that there’s one boy who is perfect for you. If someone asked me what my standards are, I could go on forever. I’m trying to lower them though. I’ve realized that I can’t have everything I want.

But at the same time… Why not? Why shouldn’t I have high standards? I deserve that. I deserve a boy who’s going to be there for me and who’s going to love me like no one else does. He’s going to prove to me that not all guys are bad. And he’s going to make me feel like the most beautiful girl in the world. He’ll love me for who I am. He’ll fix me where I’m broken, and he’ll complete me. I’m a sucker for love and fairy tales and weddings and cute couples. That’s what I want. I’ve grown up in a broken family and I won’t settle for less than I deserve. I don’t need another douche bag in my life. I’ll never depend on a boy to make me happy. I’m too strong for that. And I’ll never put up with a boy who isn’t truly there for me and doesn’t really love me. I’m better than that. And maybe I sound conceited or stuck up, but I deserve that. I don’t expect to get everything I want. But I know that they are boys like that. I see it all of the time. I’ll be happy and I’ll be in love with the most wonderful boy in the world. Because that’s what I deserve and that’s what every other girl deserves too. My mama taught me to never settle for less than you deserve.